Sunburst

Back when I worked at Deck-it, Dad and I were able to spend a lot of our days together. That time was what I call the beginning of building our "real" relationship. It's hard for me not to have remorse and regrets for how I treated him at times when I was younger. I don't believe he deserved it. But, I am so grateful for my change of heart over the years and that is what I try to hold on to. All I have now and have had for a long time, is love.

I remember one day at Deck-It, Dad told me about a dream that he had about him and I. He said that there was a brick wall between us and that I purposefully knocked it down while driving full speed backwards. I wish I could give him a hug and tell him that we did it together.

Do you remember that big, beautiful Sunburst Locust tree he planted in front of the cabin at the old house? That tree has always reminded me of him.
I wrote this for you Dad...

Long ago you had a dream.

There was a wall between us,

I broke it down.

But, it wasn't me alone,

We broke it down together.

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A golden sunburst bloomed,

And now a giant Locust tree breathes in its place.

Splashes of yellow gold and green sway back and forth like glitter above me,

And warm my broken heart.

Only sweetness,

Only love is left to feel.

Dad, did you know,

Did you know you are my sunburst?

Did you know that you were always enough? 

I love you Dad, and miss you already.

Love, Annie